A#2 is Home Safe

Going back to the time when Ann and A#2 both were at my house was very chaotic. I had never let 2 people stay at one time before. I should probably look to see if I was journaling during this period. I only had one extra bedroom so my dining room was used for A#2’s bedroom in the beginning.

If you have read my blogs you know that Ann wasn’t here very much longer after A#2 moved in. Ann was definitely jealous of me being close to anyone else. I know I need to go back and write more about my time with Ann. I have only shared the major events as with many of my blogs. Part of making them all connect into my life story will be going back over them and my life to make it be a cohesive story by connecting the events I have shared in a chronological timeline. They are for the most part.

My writing has been so instrumental in my healing and awakening journey. Looking back now to when A#2 got back to the house after the events that had unfolded in my last blog. I have went over these memories several times and there are little details that are still not clear to me. I know now that I didn’t probably get the true story then. I was told someone put something in their drinks.

The story as I remember it is that A#2 and her friend woke up at a different location than where she was at originally and where her car was parked. After more inquiry I learned it was one of the houses near where the doctors office was when the police pinged her phone. She was right where I had looked for her. A#2 wasn’t very forthcoming on the specific details with me. I know now that had I not been distracted with Ann’s behavior. I would have not accepted how things transpired and A#2 would have probably been asked to leave before she was.

Here I was in a really chaotic and possibly dangerous situation. Ann was displaying signs of a major personality disorder, possibly multiple personalities. A#2 was definitely still having an addiction issue. The substance was way more than I had a clue. I want go into all of those specifics other than I found clues hidden in my house at a later time.

I was only trying to help others but I definitely had no clue what I was doing at this point. I had gotten myself way over into things that I had no experience or expertise in. I tried to get Ann to seek professional help but she refused. I did A#2 as well. She did want help but getting it for her wasn’t easy. Her dad wasn’t open to helping her with inpatient cost at that time. Trying to get help through governmental agencies proved to be a very daunting task.

I had no clue then how addiction can be treated through a spiritual process. We all know addiction usually is the attempt in handling an emotional or traumatic event, or a spiritual issue by the person. I can see how each of the souls who came to stay with me was showing me so many truths for my life. It was all about me and my awakening and healing journey. I was truly trying to help my own soul through helping others.

I do hope each one of these souls know I did have pure intentions of helping them but I was so not equipped to do that and I really didn’t realize it then. Through my writings and over the past 5 years I have come to see just how our most trying and biggest battles are right where our spiritual gifts are. This is where most of our missions for this incarnation will come from.