CREATING TURMOIL PART 2

Today, I have realized I have been in a cycle of a continued unhealthy pattern in my life. I realized I create turmoil when my life is peaceful. Yes, turmoil and it can spur us to heal but it can also get us off our intended path.

When I agreed to bring my sister to my house on hospice, I really thought she maybe had 3 months to live. I thought it was an opportunity to spend some quality time with her before she left this plane.

As faith would have it, this was not the case. Through prayer and energy healing, my sister's breathing and heart condition have improved if not been healed. The main health issues now are her memory issues with dementia and Alzheimer's.

Before Linda came here I was getting ready to put my house on the market to sell so I could travel around the US. Looking back I am wondering if I took on the task of caring for my sister because I had some unhealed issues and because of fear of stepping out into my personal mission.

I believe it is some of both. Also, my sister's dad told me that he brought her to me for him to reach her. Her dad is behind the veil. He transitioned back in 1964. I am not aware of his current incarnation. He contacted me through a friend who is a medium.

My sister has triggered some unhealed emotions within me. She is constantly telling me I am fat & bossy. So what should I do. The way I see it is if it hurts my feelings then I should do something about it or either don't let it bother me. I have realized my sister brings up emotions that my mother activated in me of feeling unloveable and the fear of abandonment. So here I am at another crossroad of life. Do I continue on this path or do I adjust and then move forward?

Of course, I choose to adjust and move forward. I believe once the Medicaid caregivers come through I need to have my nephew either move Linda back home or decide where he wants her to be. I cannot continue to be bossy and force my sister to not drink or smoke and eat a healthy diet. She has her free will and it's her and her sons place to make the decisions as to how to best care for her.

I need to continue my own personal healing journey and continue working towards making my personal mission come to fruition. Face my fears of what's keeping me from moving forward to continue my own personal healing journey.

I do believe that in this process I have learned things that give me input to work towards creating a better process than the current Hospice system. I know when I had my personal blueprint done it showed hospice care within it.

*"Hospice Care - End of life passage. Focusing on healing energy to help ease transition into the next phase."