THE JOURNEY CONTINUES

Tonight after dinner I was called to go back and review my blogs about my life from the beginning. I started writing four years ago in April 2019. I began at the point of where I was in my life and went back to my birth. Throughout the blogs I have done my best to share chronologically but there were times I needed to share from the current time as I was writing as I am tonight.

It's amazing how much I really have been through, learned, and grown. I know there is so much more for me to do. It's really very helpful to review your life occasionally. It truly puts things into perspective.

The last few months have been like a death and rebirth cycle in my life and I know it has for many others. We go through cycles in our lives and I have had a few of these over my 57 1/2 years. Where I currently stopped reading in my blog was when I realized for the first time in my life I had a soul. I was 27 at this time.

I feel like there is some reason in particular I was called to go back through my blogs tonight. As I write now I am open to hearing from God. I felt called to continue with my review of my blogs. I just finished reading through every one. Wow, it's amazing how you can see patterns that I have repeated time and time again.

Whenever I have a period of peace I always do something to bring chaos or trials back into my life. Like the most recent time when I was on my journey to better health and being at a good place in my life last summer. I agreed or really volunteered to bring my sister Linda here at my house to care for her after her last hospital stay.

If you read my blogs you know from recent ones, I have tried to convince myself I did the right thing bringing her here. I hope I did but I can't change it now. We did have lots of good experiences and she got better. But looking back here I am almost a year later and have digressed on my health journey.

During the time Linda was here I did not eat healthy or continue with my walking. I did good for a short period after Linda went home. I stayed busy with arranging repairs to my house. I stayed active and out of the house a lot but that only lasted for a couple of months. Since February I fell back into being anti social with my behavior and not continuing my health journey. I know that the energies have been heavy and many have retreated and been spending more time away from others. I just can't but help feel that there is something that causes me to withdraw. I will keep looking and seeking for anything that needs healing.

Just in the past few days have I felt my mind click back into an active state from a passive one as have others. So now I will begin again and do my best not to bring chaos into my life. I am open and listening to God for direction. I believe my best days are ahead of me and no matter if I did get off my path temporary, I will course correct and always continue on and not miss anything that is meant for me.