S and her 3 girls

Today I was trying to remember how the events happened chronologically after I moved into my house here on Maple. I have shared about the site I was on doing Live’s and making friends. There was this young man we will call B. He would also do Live’s on this site. He was a veteran and had gone through a tough divorce and was having a tough go of things. We became friend's,as well as, his current girlfriend, S.

S herself had been through two divorces and had 3 small children. She had been in the military as well. When we became friends through B I learned that she was struggling to make ends meet and wanted to change her life. She was working a not so great job even though it paid well. But she was away at night from her children. Her first husband, father of the two oldest children had moved to Tennessee. She thought it would be helpful to move closer to him. So I offered my home as a temporary step to getting a place in Georgia.

I knew it would be a lot to allow a young woman and her 3 children to move in with me. I just wanted to try and help her. I had many help me along my life’s journey. I did put a time frame of 2 months for her to have a job and be saving to get her own place. I did say under no circumstances would any drug use in my home be tolerated. She agreed to both.

S and the girls moved in and I loved having the young girls in the house even though the youngest was very unruly. S did have a tough exterior and she wasn’t very easy to talk with about certain things. But to be fair I really had no business bringing her and girls in my house. I was ill equipped emotionally. I had not healed my own trauma. I had no clue what I was doing. I know now I was attempting a form of reparenting myself.

Unfortunately, S’s main focus in my view was not on job finding but on finding a boyfriend. By this time her and B had ended their relationship. She would ask me to watch the girls and some times not return for over 24 hours. I keep trying to be patient and encouraging with her. I want go into specific details but this was a very emotional experience for us all.

It was close to the end of the first month and S asked if a friend who tattoos could come to the house and give her a tattoo. I gave the ok but had no clue how late in the night it would be. Her oldest two had school the next day. Well it was a bad experience for the girls and everyone that night. They were in my living room doing the tattoo also they were loud and drinking. The girls bedroom had been made where my dining room was right next to the living room.

That night S was on Live on the site we met on and she was seen using an unusual substance to numb her reaction to the pain of the tattoo. I had the no exceptions rule and she knew it. The next day I told her she had 24 hours to get out of my house. It wasn’t an easy thing but I couldn’t allow this in my home. I felt for the young girls but truly she was ultimately responsible. I also knew my responsibility as well. I followed through with that also.

S did eventually get out of the house but not in 24 hours. It was a tough go of it but she did eventually move into a house with a guy she had been communicating with. We had a strained relationship for a period but eventually did clear the air. We never were close though after this event. I am sure we both could have done things differently.

This was the first of 5 different young ladies that I attempted to help in the 2 years prior to my awakening in 2019. I can look back now and see the lessons I learned in each situation. I will share each of those in the coming blogs. I was attempting to work out my own wounds and understand my own life through helping others. I wouldn’t recommend this process I took or maybe it was exactly what I was supposed to do.

Either way we will never miss what is for us. If we get off path our higher self or our team or God will assist us to get back where we need to be. We can trust that! I am sure of this for all of us! You set up the main lessons with others before this incarceration you want to learn. We work in each lifetime with members of our soul family and play different roles in each life to work our life plans and help our soul family too with theirs.

If you haven’t begun working on your own healing, I recommend starting today! There is a beautiful life you are meant to live. When one of us heals, we help heal others and together our higher vibrations help heal earth.

I love you!