The Fourth One, A#2

Ok let me try to go back and pick up areas I haven’t shared about. After A moved out it was the Spring of 2019. You can scroll in my blogs on my website to around January or February 2022 and read the blogs that tell the events of my life from the time after A moved out. After A was a young lady I called Ann in my blogs and her story is there or what I have told of it so far. These tell of some very pivotal times for me. I had my first past life remembrance while Ann was living with me. There are several blogs that cover that period.

Not long after Ann moved in another friend I had made from the dating/social site that lived locally became homeless. She needed somewhere to stay till she could get on her feet and get her own place. We will call her A#2. A#2 was very different from the 3 other young ladies that I had took in my home. She was in her thirties and had gone through an addiction to pain medication, as well as, losing her job as a nurse because of her addiction. She had worked various jobs but hadn’t found her solid footing yet. She had been living with her mom and her mom had unexpectedly transitioned. Once the house was sold she had no where to go.

A#2 was a very sweet and easy going young lady. But honestly I didn’t think this one through at all. She told me she was no longer abusing any legal or illegal substances. She just was very sad and lost after losing her mom that I truly just let that play on my heart strings. I really was like in this unusual headspace after having my first past time remembrance. I was really going through a major part of my awakening journey and everything was very euphoric.

Tonight as I have been trying to recall from memory how the events unfolded everything seems cloudy. It was a very traumatic time. Ann was removed from my house not long after A#2 moved in. That’s all detailed in the blogs I mentioned previously. A#2’s dad had moved her in and had agreed to give me $200 a month. A#2 and her stepmother did not get along and that was the reason she couldn’t stay at her dad’s.

As I am writing I am trying to tell the events without sharing too much that would hurt this young lady. One event that is really coming to my mind actually happened before I had to have Ann removed from the house. A#2 had went to visit one of her friends in a near by town one particular night. Ann and I had went somewhere but I can’t recall the specifics.

We were sitting in the car talking and all at once my head dropped like down right into my chest, my arms went limp, and I couldn’t move anything. It was as if I was paralyzed. I couldn’t move but I could hear things going on around me and I could just barely speak. My heart was racing too. Ann didn’t know what to think. I truly felt like I was dying. At that moment I realized I was feeling A#2.

I had never had anything like this happen to me before nor have I since. This wasn’t long after my first past life remembrance and it was extremely intense. This was just as intense but very different. I now know exactly what was going on but then it wasn’t as obvious. I was so connected to A#2 that at this very intense and dangerous time for her, I too was feeling what she was experiencing.